Monday, October 13, 2008

9:58 PM

emotional

I don't like to get emotional.
esp when so many fun things are taking place.
and im having so much fun.
but then BY YUANFEN,
i chanced upon that.
and i realise i have to say something.
it's bad that the relationship now is that we cant even tell our real feelings face to face now.
it's like nothing really happened right?
yet so many things are going on inside.
i really dont like this.
because it's making things awkward and weird.
but anyway if you ever bothered to read or bothered to realise WOW SHE'S TALKIN ABT ME.
i think you will know. it's not like you are an idiot.
here it goes:

you can deny that you were talking about me
but really it's quite obvious because
1. i can count the number of years. it match.
2. friends. same class. it match
3. i can feel it. im not an idiot right.

i dont understand why you have to use such harsh words on me,
because i didnt do anything bad on you
it's just that something happened between us
so deep that we cant understand what's going on.

if you feel like friends are the people that you have to possess,
then tie a strap to them, put glue on them,
and stick them to you.
or you can masking tape their mouth so they cant ever talk to me.
right?
i never have the intention of keeping them away from you right?
in fact i keep myself away when you ask them and they ask me.
right.

after like knowing what u felt
我的心里沉沉的.
abit sad.
but i know things can never go back the way before because.. i also dont know why.
maybe can, if we make an effort.
but we wont, so dont bother.
and if you're asking me to get my own life,
why not think that you also should get your own life hor?

what i see you as now
is also different from before.
am i going to expect you to change back to before?
no. because i know life changes,
and things doesnt work that way.
you cant expect people to suit the way you are right.
so what did u see me as?
i changed because you changed right.
im not blaming anything.
but how can you expect me to be same as before when you have changed so much.

if you are angry that you had to know me,
please dont be
because you dont really "know" me, alright.
I also didnt chose to meet you.
so dont blame that.

that's all.
we havent really got anything to say to each other, have we?

after reading this
you dont have do anything.
it takes too much to do something.
we cant afford it.
so just let it go.
no matter what
what we did already left footprints in my heart.

i guess we should keep things the way they are now.
maybe just give me a smile,
a sincere smile when you see me.



if you want to know what i feel about you,
i think you have changed alot. (just like you think i have)
you seem to only want to keep within your circle
and not bother of anything out of the circle.
so i try to keep out of your circle.
but i cant control if people in your circle comes out and join in my square right.

i dont like this post, its getting :(
and its too emotional.
but i have to say all this out.
it makes me feel better.
i have to let you know i care.
and yes i can feel things.


this is a wordy post.
i really hope you wld read it.
it's really really meant for you.
even though after you read nothing will really change still.
but i dont really need things to change luh.



dear humans,
please dont assume anything.

I blog but you don't have to understand.