Worm eaten by chicken

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

11:07 PM

attract.admire.

attract is outside one.
admire is inside one.
the deep one.

:)
because its very interesting to realise you admire someone.
like that kind of wahness.
hmmmms.

I blog but you don't have to understand.

Thursday, December 25, 2008

1:27 PM

secrets.

Since christmas is a season of sharing and giving, here's 3 secrets to share!

1) When I go out with active bloggers, I can't help to start thinking that what is happening will become the blog content of the next day. And I think it's abit scary because sometimes people are enjoying the blogging about it part more than the the real thing itself.

2) I secretly think people in the world (including myself?) are acting like tourists in their own country. The act of taking pictures of EVERYTHING. Like really everything and anything. Not like in the past when cameras are only for big events or when you go overseas kind of thing. Sometimes this scares me.

3) I donno what's up with the Right angled hair. Cannot elaborate because will offend people. For those who know what I mean or think you know but don't very know, I just find the right angled hairstyle abit FUNNY.

I blog but you don't have to understand.

2:06 AM

the fun before the real thing.

1) pasar malam games
pay $3 you get 4balls. you throw. if you hit all the things then u can choose a Big prize, if only your second ball hit all the things, you can choose the 2nd big prize, if your 3rd ball hit all the things... so on..
All the prizes are nonsense.
But you are attracted and want to play.
WHY?
Because you know you can win.
Because it feels good to WIN SOMETHING.
and to get something because you kind of "earned" it.
$3 is an worth-it-price to pay to get the Big Prize.
But if in another circumstance, where another man asks you to buy the Big Prize for $3,
you wouldnt buy.

Okay, point is,
It matters HOW something is sold.
And in this case you(actually is me) are attracted to play the game because
you are paying for the fun.

(but is not fun leh!)
(lucky in the end i never play!)

2)Prawning/ Fishing
This is a fucking cruel and evil activity.
Let me tell you why.
Last time I tried to justify my actions by:
Since they are going to be killed and going to be eaten anyway,
so it's okay to prawn them before they die.
I realise to myself, that THIS IS SUCH A FUCKING WRONG THOUGHT!
It's just like saying, since the criminal sentenced to death sentence is gonna die,
then we can torture him first and cut him into pieces.
Is like having fun of the prawn before it die.
Is like torturing before we eat.
Having fun at the expense of other's death.
If want to eat, cook and eat.
Very kelian already, then we people still must HOOK IT AT THE MOUTH AND THEN BBQ IT LET IT SLOWLY DIE AT THE HEAT AND TURN TWIRL AROUND AND POKE IT WITH THE SKEWER AND PUT SALT.
THE WORSE IS, eat already then still say "WAH NOT NICE ONE"
THE WORST IS, too full then THROW AWAY.
is like bai si le.(die for nothing)
So like, I'm never gonna prawn or fish again.
I think.
(I'm too powerless to stop this act of cruelty anyway.)

I hope normal humans understand this post because this is a post meant to be understood.
I'm just.. thinking about human reaction :)

I blog but you don't have to understand.

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

1:13 AM

:)

那种感觉很舒服
很自然
一点压力也没有
很亲切，不会想歪，不会有坏想法
就是很舒服的对话
这，是找到了朋友吧。

It feels so good when we are not thinking about other people "that way".
When those despos think about people that way, I guess it makes people despise you more.

I'll see how it goes.

I can't understand why people dare to post up ugly photos of themselves.

I can't understand why people can be so thin and pretty. omg.

I feel very fat. bye.

I blog but you don't have to understand.

Sunday, December 21, 2008

12:59 AM

such happy days.

didnt know it was so nice to sit and stare at the sky, feeling good, with the wind brushing your face and letting your hair fly with the air.
(it feels good to stone.today. or maybe its a good day.)
so sometimes your friend late, you can enjoy the scenery in the mean time :)
really enjoyed the "waiting" today because the wind felt so good.
made me sleepy in the station.

im getting friendlier with strangers.
thats great.
fellow singaporeans.
enjoy that kind of exchanges of few words with just the intention of being friendly.
:)

Have a good sense of humour.
Curse all of lifeskills.

There is free lunch in the world.
Enjoyed three day of free food in the camp,
then today at the bday party who i dont even know the bday girl,
tml SPA PARTY.
free food again!
and then if someone want to treat you, then go lor!
since he wants to make friend with you so much.

Time is really getting faster and faster, don't you feel like holidays are passing faster and faster?
I still rmb in sec one i thought holidays are kind of bored, and nth to do.
then now...
DIGGING AND SQUEEZING FOR MORE TIME.

I can feel myself turning into a good person.(this is very bhb i know)

Because im having the habit of buying tissue from old people.
Answering strangers questions.
Accompanying people to do things for the sake of being a friend.
Buy things for people with the true intention of making them happier.
Letting others have benefits without feeling pissed.
Being happy that I cheered someone up.
Influencing people with my happy go lucky attitude.

anyway i watched anderson prom vids. very entertaining. go search at youtube!

I blog but you don't have to understand.

Saturday, December 20, 2008

2:04 AM

哇

遇到那种以前一直认定是很肤浅，很耍帅，的人
认识后发现原来自己错了
很惊讶，觉得自己不能随意评估一个人的价值
因为往往自己看到的根本不是整个故事，只是半张图。
人不可貌相啊！
Looks are deceiving, that's why.

自己好像想通了不再在乎不值得在乎的。
过去的会有机会真正放开吗
很希望...

When you find that someone is very deep, it seems like there's this sudden outburst of admiration because there is more than it that meets the eye.
Things are most of the time not what you think it is.
Instead of suffering, maybe, enjoy?
Don't have to make people understand things, just have to understand the rules, and play by the game.

:D

I blog but you don't have to understand.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

7:29 PM

There is a difference.

Q: Are there more boys than girls in the world?
A: There are more women than men, by 3 to 4%. The birth rate is 50/50, but women live longer than men.

More females make up the majority of Internet users.
(I also personally noticed MOST of the famous active male bloggers are more girly type. haha)

Pilot whales, for example, suckle their young until age 14, and they, along with humans, are two of the few species that menstruate.
(Am very amazed that whales menstrate.)

While men succumb to fatal illnesses like heart disease, stroke, and cancer, women live on with non-fatal conditions such as arthritis, osteoporosis, and diabetes.
(Haha which is better?)

Till I find another better place to express my weird thoughts and curiosity,
I shall continue blogging.
(But I hope people can treat this blog as a alien's blog and different from the real person,
even though the thoughts belong to the same person.
Getting abit erm.. feel-very-weird that people are thinking im weird.
haha.

(I use haha alot? Is it a way to lighten things up? Maybe.)

I blog but you don't have to understand.

Friday, December 12, 2008

2:44 AM

thinking

about after sec 4.
abit too early now i know.
just thinking too much, as usual.

it's really about what we really wanna do in our life already.
continue studying (jc or poly or others.) , overseas, or start work.
really.
seems real.
haha.
i still can live in my dreams for another year.
dreams.
but in this dream also must pull up socks and "accept the reality" which is really in the dream but

in the dream they call it reality, even though it's in the dreams.

i think im just going to be another "just another jc girl"
right.
so typical.
but most probably lor.

but that dream might come true, if right opportunity comes.
In the meantime, study hard for the last year, first.
(some people get so much in their lives, like really.)

Heart! (taken from my house there again lol)

I blog but you don't have to understand.

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

10:26 PM

do you ever feel like totally uninterested and have to pretend to be interested?
or cannot say out that you are just NOT interested.
or feel totally DONT WANT but do it and pray hard that something happens so that you are not the one saying no, but the end result becomes a no.
Feel like a meanie, but I feel happy as a meanie.

I can't stand those who think like people give a big damn about them.
And keeps talking like they are the kings n queens.
For YOUR OWN SAKE, who gives the bloody damn about you!!
You think too much about how others look at you,
then again,
who is looking at you?
OMG I WISH I COULD SAY TO YOUR FACE
to leave me alone.

ARGH.

LOL!

Anyway it feels so cosy to hang out with someone you feel comfortable with.
HELLO HELLO! (your type of hello)

(no reply)

EXCUSE ME! (HAHA)

PINEAPPLE! :D talking about you.
Here's a secret:
Actually I feel quite happy that your supervisor told you that "you think you picking calls ah. hello what"
Because actually i was very irritated with your hello before!
HAHAHAHAHA.
the change from XIAOMEIMEI to NV REN.
HAHA.
There arent many people you feel comfortable with.

Is it us?
Is it me?
Is it the clock?
Time whizzes by faster and faster as we grow older.
whooosh.

Now I think Life is fair.
To most of us at least.
:))

.
.
.
You know why?
BECAUSE LIFE IS FAIR! :D
as fair as funfair.

I blog but you don't have to understand.

Tuesday, December 09, 2008

7:10 PM

go play this

http://www.peta.org/cooking-mama/index.asp?c=pmkegc08
quite cute. fun?
because you learn something from it.

quite scary that we are eating animals.
(I'm in no postition to say this because
i was the one who tried duck's tongue.
and loves chicken butt.)
Anyway,
humans are supposed to be herbivores because we have straight teeth like goats.
Then again, my teeth aren't straight.

I blog but you don't have to understand.

Sunday, December 07, 2008

1:36 AM

whao.

just decided to post something normal. like not emo-yy and thoughts and shit yeah.

haha but still have to say some emo-yy stuffs.
sometimes its not like you want to find, then can find one.

Okay.
but im trying,

know but dont want to acknowledge.

know but dont want to admit.

so cowardy.
but then again maybe things are better if truth is kept within wraps.
some things are better left unknown.but i want to know.

-end of emoyy-

ok now shall start writing about stuffs your can understand.

hehe look at this. so pretty right. this is the pair of slippers i lost in taiwan and bought the same pair today :)
love the color for dono what lovely reasons.
painted my toenails pastel purple.
and they seem to go with the slippers.
alot.
feel so contented. yeah so easily.
now im thinking of wearing them at home only. cuz they are so comfy.
shld i buy another pair so i can wear one pair out and keep the other pair at home?
no.
thats nonsense.
im a serious person who leads a serious life.
(yeah it is obviously a meant to be joke)

i think i will go back to saying my emo-yy and maybe-you-dont-understand stuffs.
because i got nothing normal to say!
like "today i met who, did what" this kind of shit i dont have to report to you.
blog and make the whole world know. i just. dont really like.
haha.

OK LAH. actually i have nothing to say.
(anyway just to inform you. i will blog alot in dec. like almost everyday right. but next year then i will stop alr.)
I really feel I have been playing too much.
But I feel proud of myself today because I actually read a book while taking the train.
not a whole book. but yeah i read.
:D

I blog but you don't have to understand.

Saturday, December 06, 2008

12:36 AM

yeah lah yeah lah im so free

yesterday i went to cycle in the rain.
today i went to watch wild child. (yeah. nice. quite funny.)
tomorrow im going to ben and jerry's chunkfest.

jealous anot?
so xian kong right.
because im fangxian.

come on lah.
next year then pia already.
last month enjoy abit lah?

(ky: i updated! december been updating in daily basis leh. gosh. com addict. i dont like.)
(mn: very got link right? in order somemore. ytd. tdy then tml)

I blog but you don't have to understand.

Thursday, December 04, 2008

7:54 PM

sometimes

when things turn out good on the outside and good inside,
you get a little shocked.
:D

I blog but you don't have to understand.

Wednesday, December 03, 2008

1:02 AM

feel like this.

There are some answers you will never find out.
Some things are better left as a mystery.
Maybe not better left unknown, just that no one bothers to make it known.
is not don't bother.
is too shy.
LIKE HAHA.
开眼hello.闭眼goodbye. and its still goodbye.
也许再也不会看到你
也没有将来
没有结果
至少还是有美好的回忆吧
SO MUCH FOR MY HAPPY ENDING.
meant to be supposed to be , but we lost it.

你不说我不会知道
那我不说你也不会知道
竟然都不想说那就什么也别说吧

then again. 说了又怎样
其实想想
没什么好说的

because
it's weird to ask.
it proves that i noticed.
and i know.
if you deny then i die.
not close enough to ask.
and i still want my face!

sometimes somethings maybe like ten years later you will dare to say haha.
wait till things dont matter anymore.
then its not important to say anymore when it dont matter anymore what.

you know its very weird and laughable that
now that i dont care abt ____
i take it so easily.
can even make joke.
dead jealous of ____
argh.
everytime i ___ i really cherish it because i wont know when will be my next time.
it seemed so little to you but it means so much to me.
i finally understand why i take it so seriously.
you don't have to understand.

Something you can understand:
oh i wanted to talk about something i saw in tour guides that impressed me.
they learn to let things go easily.
because they keep saying hello and goodbye, that they don't feel sad of endings, they feel happy because something happened, not sad because something ended.
天下没有不散的宴席
enjoy the 宴席 then enough already lah.

and they can talk like机关枪
哈哈

camera can never replace human memory.
sometimes when there is no camera,
just take the picture in your brain lah.
it's not important to show people.
it's important to remember it yourself.
people don't actually feel the happiness in photos.
they feel happy when looking at photos because they can remember the real thing happening.

OKAY BYE.

I blog but you don't have to understand.

Monday, December 01, 2008

10:31 PM

the world is getting funny.

ok this is very funny for me.
i have another email now
fx407@rocketmail.com

ROCKETS!

I blog but you don't have to understand.

12:54 AM

everything's muahaha

muahaha says alot isnt it.

now the email thing keep popping up to say vincent uploaded pics.

fucking irritating. like ten times alrdy i swear. LOL

not complaining lah. it's good. got pics to see.

taiwan was obviously muahaha,

i think all trips are muahaha.

very social thing haha.

nowadays primary sch already have overseas trip, not too young meh?

地瓜YEAH

A B CCCCCCC

西瓜甜不甜甜!!

the lovely ten courses meals with ten people per table.
them laughing at me the pomelo girl;

the sleeps on the bus;

the lie on each other shoulder then knock on each other heads.

the taking pictures;

quickquick, i help you take. you help me take.

efficient ones: 123 ok.

maybe take quality photos ones: ooonnnee twwoooooooo thhrrreeeeee oookkkk.

smile until the teeth cold. kneel until the knee pain.

the shopping;

not enough lah. like playing games like that.

that was the first time i feel like im having heart attack shopping.
and you must learn how to calculate the value of the money back to sing dollars, decide if it's worth it, and rush off.

you must even get plastic bag from the person and put the things yourself.

feel like spending monopoly money though.

it's like you have this sense that you must finish spending all the money in the end anyway.

the solemnity of singapore is slowly creeping in;

the memories of taiwan will be forever in our hearts.

wah so yucky.

Personal note:
Even though it's all pretence, we still bother to see.

Admit it, because we like being the audience.

Personal confirmation:

LOOKS ARE DECEIVING.

MY DREAM WORLD:

Because we are so afraid we are only feeling things ourselves,

we don't even dare to say it out.

my next dream world is the world that people speak right to people's face.

"OI I LIKE YOU"
"FUCK OFF LAH ASSHOLE."

"WHAT YOU STARING AT?"

"I THINK YOU ARE CUTE"

"MY IMPRESSION OF YOU COLLAPSE AFTER KNOWING YOU.. in front of."

"I CANT UNDERSTAND WHY YOU ARE FAMOUS"

"I AM JEALOUS THAT YOU.."

"I ACTUALLY FEEL HAPPY THAT..no need to"

"I FELT SAD WHEN I KNEW.."

"WHY YOU ALSO KEEP.."

bad idea isn't it?

people would probably get pissed off easily.

on a not so important but still quite important note:

I LOST my cotton on slippers.

ya lah ya lah. it's only five dollars.

but the color is so nice. and if u look closely all the slippers are quite different.

yeah walk half way then lost.

0.0

i think im going to buy the same thing again.

this is a very weird stubborn human behaviour.

taiwan trip is the best because we got to talk to people we've never talked to before, see people we've never seen in school before, and it's a mix of people. other trips just focus on bonding with the people they already know.

ok now you can go multiply and kaypo look at the pics.

anyway flea market at hajilane today was cool.

teh gu lai leow.
tshirt n shorts make me feel so comfy.

finally experienced what is

美好的时间过得特别快

I blog but you don't have to understand.