Worm eaten by chicken

Friday, January 30, 2009

10:28 PM

Yi Trouble Hai Bi Yi Trouble Gao

Some people worry about not being able to do the best they can;
some worry about even having the chance to try to do their best.

Some worry about family problems;
some worry if there is a family to worry about.

Some worry about having a companion;
some worry if ownself is good enough to be a companion.

Some worry about having not completing the whole task;
some worry about how to even start attempting.

Some worry about not being able to be the best;
some probably just wants to be a lil bit better than being the worse.

I blog but you don't have to understand.

Thursday, January 29, 2009

12:46 AM

Things change.

Don't believe last time. Because last time is last time.

Quite amazing.
You never know what happens next;
life.
You never know what you don't know;
until you really know.

Must learn to be smart.
Don't be stupid.
This quote really works for me.
Whenever i need to think what to do, i think along the line "don't be stupid".

Still enjoying life.

February comes :D
you need to have the sad part before you can be happy that it ends right?
(talking abt o levels. see if you can understand.)
So let's enjoy the sad part now.

I blog but you don't have to understand.

Friday, January 23, 2009

12:17 AM

My form teacher.

There's only so much teachers can do for you,
in the end it's up to youself.
I give you one chem ws,
you can go and do tys.
tys not enough you can buy books from bookshop.

"I really think if you do all your work properly,
there is no reason why you cant do well."
I think so too :)

Because after we graduate, we will be like pigs,(i say one)
getting the miss mok stamp(she say one)
Like "produced by miss mok" kind of goods.
Was damn funny.
I can imagine us all sitting on the conveyor belt then getting stamped.
SUPER LOL.
Like pigs.

Read textbook. Then do.
That's what learning is all about.

She really impressed me.
Both teaching way and dressing way.
(50yr old look like 20yr old!!)
Her lessons are very tense, because WE ARE SCARED OF HER.
Then we dont dare to do anything not supposed to do.
she got alot of 威严which some teachers no matter what, also dont have.
So it's a quite tensed up atmosphere, with a scary teacher.
But I feel quite impressed because she really gained that respect..
"priorities to miss mok work"
"you got do?miss mok work leh!"
"faster. miss mok lesson leh!"

But I know this is all very good.
Because WE ARE DOING WORK!!
because we are scared of her.
LOL.

HAHA FINALLY. I kind of like my form teacher.

I blog but you don't have to understand.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

12:51 AM

要看得开

不喜欢人家把我当理所当然
不喜欢自己不能做选择
不喜欢没有想要有的

I blog but you don't have to understand.

Monday, January 19, 2009

7:15 PM

What?

Treating things neutrally.
Not thinking too much.
Not worrying about things that won't happen.
Not worrying about things that I will not see anymore.
Not worrying about things that I don't want to feel.
HAHA.
Feels free.
Learn to say no to people.
Means saying yes to yourself.

It's not that I don't like her.
It's just that our personality don't match.
This is such a good excuse for ALMOST EVERYHING.
It's not I don't like, it's just our personality don't match.
It's not I don't want, it's just our personalty don't match.
It's not I hate her, it's just our personality don't match.
But actually MING MING JIU SHI don't like don't want and hate.

You can't please everyone in the world,
so at least please yourself :)

I blog but you don't have to understand.

Sunday, January 18, 2009

1:26 AM

That problem.

The weirdest thing is the one being talked about most probably won't think is the self.
Then the one nothing to do with it will anyhow think is the self.

Last time I really thought it was a big problem.
But the way you act to it made me change my thoughts and realise things aren't that bad and what I'm worrying about isn't something worth worrying about.
Because maybe it's just That way.

But now I know It is something to think about, just that it's something we see, but never mention to each other. No discussion. But it's not something to be discussed also.
It's just like the need to discuss something that doesn't really need to be discussed.

Because we are all on the roller coaster, we just have to hold on tightly.
We have no time to think.
Even if we do, we can't change anything already.
Too late.
There is never too late?
No lah. It's really too late.

If there is a reason to say out, then it's still ok.
If you can describe the problem, then it's still alright.
What if there's No reason and No description.
That's the saddest part.

Or maybe they don't see the problem.

It's only me and myself again.

I blog but you don't have to understand.

Friday, January 16, 2009

8:16 PM

sometimes i feel that nobody is free enough for me.
no one can really sense what is happening inside me. but it's ok because i can help myself to do things i want.
i really have to stop making myself sad because of weird reasons.
so weird until you cant even tell people why.
Sometimes i feel that i care about something that i shouldnt care about because it is kind of like not my problem type of thing, but because people tell me, then i become more concerned about it than the person involved. Need to change.

It's doesnt matter what you are doing, it's who you are with.

LOOKS are so.. annoying.
Imagine if we all don't have looks at all.
Just interacting with our thoughts.
Then there would not be material wants, vanity,
and people would not befriend each other for looks,
because it is not a factor at all.
There would not be any "face" to match with the name.
So nobody would be fat or ugly.
Life would be better, yea?
Because most of the time, looks are SO DECEIVING.

Btw, here's a really disturbed thought. (but is crap la.)
See ah,
special/express study 4 years.
normal acad study 5 years.
then they take the same o lvl paper.(right?)
and since we all would love it if we have one more year to revise,

so why we all don't want to opt to be na and then we get one more year to revise?

it's still the same o level paper what?
And higher chance of you getting a1 for everything.

SO WHY WE DON'T WANT AH?

It's only the stream change to NA right?
but the results will be good also??

Ok if it's the stream problem,
then WHAT IF(not real)
you can be special/express still,
and then give you one more year to study.

WHY WE STILL DON'T WANT.?

I'm not saying these because I want to change to NA lah.

I am just REALLY CURIOUS about our mentality.

Is it given a choice, we all would rather complete something as soon as possible?
Is it because human don't want to waste time in their life?
Is it because we are all born to compete with one another,
and given a choice, nobody would choose to be "slower" than the rest?

Then,

what if again,
(note the word IF, not real. not real.)

you confirm gurantee chop chop get all a1 if u study one more year.
Just that you don't know what your results would be like this year.
Then will you stay for one more year?

Tough decision.

Maybe I would. because if stay then confirm all a1.
(but in real life, there's no confirm.)

So, HAHA
you can laugh at my ridiculous thoughts.

I blog but you don't have to understand.

Thursday, January 15, 2009

12:48 AM

BLAH!

-the red balloon from 31dec still hasnt burst/deflated. weird.
-classroom is really windy. until the door slam, paper fly.
-atmosphere at avt makes you get into sleepy mode.
-when you see improvement, you get motivated.
-sec four work is never ending. at least catch up(ketchup). (if not will be mayonaise and chilli)
-you will only take action when something gets on ur nerve for a really long time.
-don't like the idea that someone is having bad impression of yourself.
-stress make you do better. when you feel really stressed, but at the end, you will feel more accomplished.
-when you don't know if you should feel happy or sad, it hurts.

I blog but you don't have to understand.

Monday, January 12, 2009

8:13 PM

Don't be stupid.

-My school has this thumbprint thing. which you scan your ezlink and put your thumbprint when you come to school, and go out of school.
If you never come sch they will send sms to your parents. Then the machine can record your face so yea..
kind of ridiculously high tech.
Today i happily thought monday bring tie, so like last mon i never bring tie, and i happily thought today finally rmb. then i realise i go sch i forget to put my thumbprint thing. Point is, i everyday also forget to do something! haiz.

-I realised who in my life can be classified as eye-candies. those type of people who you just feel really warm and fuzzy after seeing that they are well and alive. so lovely.

-If you don't know what you are doing for, then do for what.

I blog but you don't have to understand.

Saturday, January 10, 2009

12:23 PM

indecisive.decisions

Sometimes I would rather be left with no choice.
At least then I would know I must
do it or do it well.
If given choices,
I would have to weigh the factors,
decide what is worth it,
decide what it would affect,
and then make a decision.

Sometimes being left with no choice is better and easier than having choices, no?
Then there wouldnt be a need to think what to do.

But it's all these different decisions that we make in life which makes us all different.
That's why everybody two eyes, one nose, one mouth
but all so different.

...

"do you want a tour around nyp?"
"we pass by only" (which is true because we went there for lunch only.)

"I think you can do well if u stop getting distracted"
(yes p im blogging abt u now.)
thanks for telling me this.
i thought it was quite motivating.
and pointing out what my distraction was.
"im not even distracted by my cca"
"you never were distracted by your cca"
HAHAHAHAA.
always feel kinda light up after talking with you. sometimes.
exasperated.sometimes.
HAHA.

P was quite shocked when she saw me bring THREE textbooks.
and she thought i was joking all the way
until she really saw three textbooks.
-.-

(pss.. i think its the first time i bought three textbooks around at one go.)
last year the teachers dont even use textbooks. so my textbks were always at home.
quite happy that this year all the teachers uses textbooks.
and very happy that mok also love the textbook.

PS stands for alot of things hor???
post script, please see, pai seh, plaza sing, and the sound "pssssst", pang sai, pig shit.
wah suddenly i think of alot more.

I blog but you don't have to understand.

Tuesday, January 06, 2009

6:27 PM

真的看得出眼神要说什么
眼神能说的话很多
但不能说的也很多

成为最熟悉的陌生人
那也不错?

成为有过美好回忆的朋友也不错?

I blog but you don't have to understand.

Monday, January 05, 2009

10:08 PM

friends are spiritual stuffs.

酒逢知己千杯少
话不投机半句多

this is just like the english version of
"can click anot?"

if people who can click, it will be like the computer and the mouse,
can work together.
if people cannot click, then it will be like a spoilt mouse.
no matter how hard u click, also cannot connect.

I think this is quite an appropriate comparison?

I blog but you don't have to understand.

12:13 AM

Study like a monkey.

i look at the physics worksheet that im doing now
and it is dated 3november 08.
and we ask ourselves,
isn't two months enough?

ok lah.jiayou.

I blog but you don't have to understand.

Saturday, January 03, 2009

11:51 PM

好像很伟大

别人可以对不起我
但我不允许自己对不起别人

心里有别人了.
原来看我
只是看爽而已.

more exchanges of few words again today.
"where is the mrt station?"
"have to cross the road" points to behind him
"oh ok."
continues walking towards opposite the way i pointed.

i looked and rolled eyes.

...

gave forty cents (borrow cashcard to photocopy math paper. was in lib)
nevermind nevermind twenty cents will do.
oh ok thank you.

...

auntie your work very fun right.
(talking to the auntie making candy floss)
uh ha. hmm.

...

talking alot to strangers,
as you can read.
maybe i look more and more like the type can ask for directions.

sheesh.
i secretly feel happy talking to strangers.
(not those that purposely make convo lah)

i think boyfriends who check other girls out are really assholes.

I blog but you don't have to understand.

Thursday, January 01, 2009

10:01 PM

the first day.

Ultimately, it's what happened behind the pictures.
Not how wonderfully the photography is executed.

SO FUN. i love all my girlfriends.

It's good that I'm seeing the big picture.

It's funny, really.

How someone can imitate the other, make jokes, and then appear like a wow good friend in front of her.

How someone can be so full of herself, prepare without plan, and it's pathetic how she doesn't know she is such a failure.
Then again, people have different measures of fun and happiness right

What may seem fun to you may not be fun to me.

And no one can judge if you are living your life, because it's yours, and if you feel like you are living your life then who can say you are not?
But it's quite obvious who is and who isnt.

Yes people judge.

This year is currently the best year of my life.

This pic is so real. yeaps.

I can feel the happiness behind the unglam smile.

Yeah, like last year i felt that it was the best year.

Meaning, it's getting better and better.

Hopefully, confirm will, that next year will again be the best year of my life again.

It's great that life is getting more and more awesome.

I can see myself being more open about extending my help to others, being friendlier and thinking harder about what i really want about certain things, and opening myself to opportunities.

And maybe not caring so much about others

it doesnt really matter what others think of you.

if they are not important.

(It's a good thing because I put more focus on what I'm doing)

And I will be braver to try new things that deserve trying.

Today I helped a blind man walk to the mrt station,

and it was really cool because this is one of another "exchanges of few words"

I asked if he can feel how old i was(because he said smt before that..)
he said twenty two.

HAHA.

Its like I might not ever see him again.
but we left good memories in each others heart.

Someone helps, someone helped.

That's how the world should go around, isn't it?
(everyone was ignoring him and just kept walking:()

Yeap, I felt that warm fuzzy feeling.

It's scary how time flies.

How things progress.

How you made me FELT IT. but yet you refuse to say it.

So it's okay.

Maybe actually really it's just me.

It's probably me having just another of my imagination.

Must be.

Think too much.

Heart feels heavy, god knows why.
SO EMO. no no.

emo is reserved for elmo.

fangxian is only HAPPY.

Okay I have completed my last year's resolution

that is to not eat KFC for a year.

And I have bravely overcome the the obstacles along the way,
stayed on with my strong will.

OBSTACLE
my brother will ask me "want to eat kfc?"

all his kind offers are on the pretext of making me not accomplish what i want.

so i always coolly say NO for how many million times.

and then he proceeds to call for delivery.

and allow the smell to spread while eating.

licking his fingers saying yummy.

and then say CANNOT FINISH LEH CANNOT FINISH LEH

then leave a few pieces

let the smell spread around the house.

and i look at the chicken.

and go away from the chicken.

the reason for not eating KFC is because last last year

I've been eating ALOT of KFC.

(and i dont like to be dependent on anything.

in this case dependent on KFC for stomach satisfaction)

Any changes that this resolution made is that

I don't like fried oily food that much anymore!

OK im probably not going to blog already.

Because see no point.

Yeah but it's pretty cool to

see the numbers jump,

see the comments updated.

And

if you keep it up,

you can advertise things,

announce things,

make known your feelings,

change the story so that you are always the good person,

earn money from nuffnang,

have people saying hi to you on the streets,

influence people with your thoughts.

But it's okay,
I am not interested.

Dont like people to judge me.

Happy new year two thousand and nine!
and byebye!

I like smurfs.

I blog but you don't have to understand.