Friday, January 16, 2009

8:16 PM

sometimes i feel that nobody is free enough for me.
no one can really sense what is happening inside me. but it's ok because i can help myself to do things i want.
i really have to stop making myself sad because of weird reasons.
so weird until you cant even tell people why.
Sometimes i feel that i care about something that i shouldnt care about because it is kind of like not my problem type of thing, but because people tell me, then i become more concerned about it than the person involved. Need to change.


It's doesnt matter what you are doing, it's who you are with.

LOOKS are so.. annoying.
Imagine if we all don't have looks at all.
Just interacting with our thoughts.
Then there would not be material wants, vanity,
and people would not befriend each other for looks,
because it is not a factor at all.
There would not be any "face" to match with the name.
So nobody would be fat or ugly.
Life would be better, yea?
Because most of the time, looks are SO DECEIVING.


Btw, here's a really disturbed thought. (but is crap la.)
See ah,
special/express study 4 years.
normal acad study 5 years.
then they take the same o lvl paper.(right?)
and since we all would love it if we have one more year to revise,


so why we all don't want to opt to be na and then we get one more year to revise?


it's still the same o level paper what?
And higher chance of you getting a1 for everything.

SO WHY WE DON'T WANT AH?


It's only the stream change to NA right?
but the results will be good also??

Ok if it's the stream problem,
then WHAT IF(not real)
you can be special/express still,
and then give you one more year to study.

WHY WE STILL DON'T WANT.?


I'm not saying these because I want to change to NA lah.

I am just REALLY CURIOUS about our mentality.

Is it given a choice, we all would rather complete something as soon as possible?
Is it because human don't want to waste time in their life?
Is it because we are all born to compete with one another,
and given a choice, nobody would choose to be "slower" than the rest?


Then,


what if again,
(note the word IF, not real. not real.)


you confirm gurantee chop chop get all a1 if u study one more year.
Just that you don't know what your results would be like this year.
Then will you stay for one more year?

Tough decision.


Maybe I would. because if stay then confirm all a1.
(but in real life, there's no confirm.)

So, HAHA
you can laugh at my ridiculous thoughts.

I blog but you don't have to understand.