been taking loads of long bus trips recently. for work. for play. they never fail to make me feel gloomy and emo. especially when it's at night and the whole bus is all quite silent, you can even hear the wheels. like the wheels rotating, your mind seems to rotates and you will start thinking about the life you left, and the life ahead.
do people feel happy on long bus trips?
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Sunday, December 27, 2009
11:30 PM
hi was too enthu abt finding job (lol!) thus, now superwoman yours truly has 5 jobs on hand. (deleted some parts) until now all the colleagues are quite nice people, so yeap, hope i do continue meeting nice people. which i will la, because nice people meet nice people. COUGH*
can't believe the effort/time/money an average woman spends on make up, seriously! WHY. must give them all a "be confident" workshop!! though makeup is quite fun ;) see, im this kind of idea-conflicting random kid.
ok bye! off to watch dang wo men tong zai yi qi!
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Friday, December 25, 2009
3:53 AM
hardest thing to find in life: good company.
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Wednesday, December 23, 2009
11:34 PM
fuck sia. they sent me on 22dec 6plus. i read the email on 23dec 11pm plus. fml fml fml.
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1:02 AM
talking normally hmm researched abit abt poly, actually not research, just browsed through those booklets and advertisements. Have an idea what courses to take if im going poly. however, havent even decided to go jc or poly. Yea la, damn slow. hate the f.indecisiveness. People already thinking which jc or which poly, i still thinking jc or poly. But i dont think we should decide even before getting results? Or maybe im weird, im thinking to either go to the best jc or not at all. So it also depends whether i can make it or not. Then again! Even if can make it, i can also choose the road less taken mah. So yea, making a choice is f.difficult. Can be a big fish in a small pond, also can be a small fish in a big pond. When people choose their tertiary lives, they think abt what they wanna work as, right? But truth is, i dont really wanna work as anything at all. Maybe im still young n immature. when is moe going to announce the release of results date? Very hard to plan things sia!
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Monday, December 21, 2009
7:43 PM
quite sad when you... shed tears without grief. smile routinely without a slight feeling of happiness.
zzz.
also, when you realise something fun happens for the last time.
gah.
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Sunday, December 20, 2009
11:17 PM
for the benefit of mankind.(esp the stupid boy) FACTS ABOUT SHEESHA
Waterpipe smokers are at risk of the same kind of diseases as are caused by cigarette smoking, including cancer, heart disease, respiratory disease and adverse effects during pregnancy. • Using a waterpipe to smoke tobacco poses a serious potential health hazard to smokers and others exposed to the smoke. • Sheesha smoke contains high levels of chemicals and poisons, including carbon monoxide, tar and heavy metals. • Many of these chemicals are known to cause mouth and lung cancers, heart disease, respiratory and other diseases. • Even though it has passed through water, the levels of toxins in sheesha smoke can be as high or higher than in cigarette smoke. • Water-pipe smokers may absorb higher concentrations of these chemicals because of higher concentrations in the smoke itself, or because they may smoke for several hours at a time and may inhale moisturized, less irritating smoke more deeply. • In a sheesha session lasting 60 minutes, a smoker can inhale as much smoke as a cigarette smoker would inhale from 100 – 200 cigarettes. • Second-hand smoke from sheesha is an extremely harmful mixture of tobacco smoke and smoke from the fuel (charcoal). • Non smokers, particularly pregnant women, babies, children and the elderly are at risk from breathing in sheesha smoke. Using a waterpipe to smoke tobacco is NOT a safe alternative to cigarette smoking.
Sources: World Health Organisation, TobReg, “Waterpipe Tobacco Smoking: Heath Effects, Research Needs and Recommended Actions by Regulators”. 2005 Kamal Chaouachi, A critique of the WHO TobReg’s “Advisory Note” report entitled: “Waterpipe Tobacco Smoking: Heath Effects, Research Needs and Recommended Actions by Regulators”. Journal of Negative Results in BioMedicine 2006, 5:17 Pam Rees, Directorate of Public Health, 2007
Here's a little more from wikipedia:
red for keywords. purple for my own words.
A common belief(stop believing things like an idiot) among users is that the smoke is significantly less dangerous than that from cigarettes.[21] The water moisture induced by the hookah makes the smoke less irritating and may give a false sense of security (like running away from reality) and reduce concerns about true health effects.[22] Doctors at institutions including the Mayo Clinic have stated that use of hookah can be as detrimental to a person's health as smoking cigarettes,[23][24] and a study by the World Health Organization also confirmed these findings.[25] Each hookah session typically lasts more than 40 minutes, and consists of 50 to 200 inhalations that each range from 0.15 to 0.50 liters of smoke (statistics statistics).[26][27]
Reports by the World Health Organization and the American Cancer Society have shown that, in a one-hour hookah session, users consume about 100 to 200 times (matches the statistic from the previous source!) the smoke and about 70 times the nicotine as they do in one cigarette.[28] A study in the Journal of Periodontology found that water pipes smokers were five times more likely than non-smokers to show signs of gum disease. People who smoked water pipes had five times the risk of lung cancer as non-smokers.[29] The water used to filter the chemicals does not work efficiently to remove all the harmful chemicals.[30]
So, DON'T DO IT.
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2:10 AM
feel like printing out alot alot alot of photos. then it will feel real to be able to touch it.
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Friday, December 18, 2009
11:28 PM
anything that involves publicity, that involves showing people IS SHOW OFF. i think we are living in a society that embraces showing off. :( that's why we take pride in wearing the prettiest clothes, taking the prettiest pictures (then putting online)
Then again, different ppl have different definition of pretty. (beauty is too strong a word) And what we wear speaks what we are. So, wearing pretty clothes is not showing off, because what someone think is pretty might not be pretty to another. SO YAY Continue taking pride in dressing yourself up! :D
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Thursday, December 17, 2009
8:09 PM
what didn't happen is what could have been, and you still can make what could have been be what will be.
The future is not fixed.
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Tuesday, December 15, 2009
8:24 PM
that's in the movies. when you are in the rain and someone appears right beside you with an umbrella, and a charming smile.
HAHA
what happens in real life is actually you just continue trudging in the rain even though your shirt is all wet, (lucky never wear white), then cars pass by you after glancing at you, and probably sneering and grinning. or maybe i think too much. and your supposedly-good -grip slippers give the kind of squeaking sound that make you feel like a duck.
(btw im kinda out of job now, kinda waiting for a call too.)
maybe it's a bad december after all. decembers are always filled with those kinda merry atmosphere around, that makes you kinda reflective, and somewhat empty.
TALKING IN CHIM WORDS, not like me. ok bye!
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Sunday, December 13, 2009
10:37 PM
sometimes you see people with fucked up life, you wish you could go and ask why because you feel you can help and start counselling the person.
But actually you cant. because it's personal. it's personal. it's personal. it's personal. and you shut up, knowing that's the ugly side of life.
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Saturday, December 12, 2009
10:45 PM
there's nothing much to be really happy about. hmm.
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Friday, December 11, 2009
11:44 PM
白白的东西真美丽. whoo.
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Thursday, December 10, 2009
11:19 PM
today, i forgot to speak confidently. talked to the interviewer like a friend. haiyo.
dont like it when you are still quite far from the pedestrain crossing, then the car stop for you, then will feel paiseh and walk fast fast right? zzz. might as well the car go first.
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Wednesday, December 09, 2009
10:50 PM
nothing's dangerous or safe unless you make it be. Like the scissors can be used to cut origami, at the same time, can be used to cut yourself.
Like the swimming pool can be used for recreational activities, at the same time, can drown yourself.
Something dangerous like a knife can be used to cut food, can also be used to kill.
I guess,
facebook is the same.
:D
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10:44 PM
i quite... dont want this holiday to end.
omg life's good.
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Tuesday, December 08, 2009
10:35 PM
you seek opportunities so that there will be a day when opportunities seek you.
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Monday, December 07, 2009
7:59 PM
lucky as a lucky star HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA omg i love my luck man.
found a great job, because most of the time i stand there posing. kidding. pose also no one see. just text me to find out the place then can come visit me kay :D come la come la. i very nice to see one. HAHA. shall learn how to say irashaimase properly.
then hor, then hor. today at the bus stop i met my neighbour, who hired me to be a tutor! :D SO LUCKY RIGHT. lucky i smart also. abit. maybe. HAHA anyway i will be very hardworking. Because TUTOR LEH. the guiding light to the young, the role model. haha exaggerating.
then hor, then hor, my bro POP is on wed! which means i can get to take photos of brown brown ninja turtles. HAHA. i still think they all look damn cute (and funny!)when they are gathering tgt. LIKE NINJA TURTLES. the black specs. like FROGGIE. anyway for ppl who dont know, POP is Pass Out Parade. I have been wondering, and am still wondering, why pass out parade called pass out parade??? not like they stand in one line and faint together right? (can totally imagine it, damn cute) somemore they really call it POP like POP POP POP. not i ownself make the short form hor. sibeh act cute! HAHA VERY LUCKY RIGHT? if no brother cannot go de hor!
(think im overly happy) actually am waiting for the 9pm show to start. another happy thing!! but i only caught like a few eps. thats quite sad.
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Sunday, December 06, 2009
1:55 AM
seriously need to get out of this losershitmesscrap. because if you are nothing, you have no place on the stage.
sigh its not what you do, its not where you go, its the company you are with, that determines how much fun you get.
hope things goes acc to my plan luh, seriously. then everything will fall in place like, like a jigsaw puzzle! yes yes mr luck is my friend.
being really random. sigh(again) hate not being able to contact some ppl. like sms to air and calling air :X SIGH. please reply me soon. :(
Go and watch Mulan, zhaowei is beautiful in there, 轰轰烈烈的爱情 makes it a good show. Paranormal activity !@#!@!@#@ totally a cheatmoney movie -.-" I dont think 2012 is like real good either =.=
feeling quite mentally dead alr, like the brain is starting to rust :/
http://www.gmax.co.nz/ bungee jumping. anyone? quite scared will die, though i think wont die -.- the height limit 1.2m only eh! HAHA I CAN I CAN. -.-
i think newurbanmale select their shopkeepers acc to looks? so it will really be quite sad if some guys go interview then cannot make it right? omg, so poor thing lor. hmm.
Everything is too much or too little, too tall or too short, too good or too lousy, only by comparison. The world would be a happy place without any comparison or competition. But without comparison or competition, there wouldn't be improvement. Then it would be all men made equal (like in f451) really love f451. everything is becoming true. one eg is letting people win in competitions which requires them to memorise song lyrics. thats what we are doing now. SO SAD.
hate how commercialised EVERYTHING is becoming nowadays. dislike how people who dont deserve things get things they really dont deserve. gah. starting to feel the injustice/unfairness in life about many many things.
The rich enjoy the virtuous cycle of prosperity, while the poor remains trapped in the vicious cycle of poverty. aiyo.
i think i sound like a mad woman who think too much. damn random sia. cant think of any title. because the post isnt abt anything at all! HAHA.
the perfect role model is there. but to find one that fits, it's hard, right?
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Wednesday, December 02, 2009
10:56 PM
the many ironies of life It takes a huge amount of technique to make small talks.
The deepest desires of our hearts are often so deep we don't see it.
What we want there now might just be what we want to get rid of in just a bit of time.
Sometimes, we are doing things just because we want to prove something, perhaps even, nothing, if you think about it.
What happens when you know you reached a turning point? And, so what if you know? What if nothing goes right if you take the road less travelled?
i think i can make things right.
love my damn random brain :)
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9:02 PM
life's like that too, ain't it? s
Each decision we make, each opportunity we are given leads to each event that we face.
Because we can't turn back, we better face forward and fight strong.
Better to enjoy the scenery ahead than to ponder over the regrets that we left behind, right? :D
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12:30 AM
LUCK where are you?
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Hi, I'm FangXian
and I believe in
Mind over body, Heart over mind.
I ♥ happy people
Happy is a virtue :D
but life is not just abt being happy
it's about doing what you never thought you could.
This is just a space to share weird thoughts.
s