let this dream fast fast over. take me away. and fly high high in the blue blue sky.
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Wednesday, January 27, 2010
12:49 AM
tomorrow promises are like piecrusts, so nice, so easily broken.
yada yada. to different peeps.
promise to eat at p.hut on racial harmony.
promise to go backpacking after tertiary (see. i still cant bring myself to type 'jc') life.
promise to bake.
promise to not be superficial, indulge in hedonism (correct use?)
in the meantime, its like that.
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Tuesday, January 26, 2010
10:10 AM
it sucks to know that life now will be like super different when school starts. pre o level period and post o level periods are amazing. like totally.
holiday rocks because you get to meet all the people you want (like all the fun people who you see only once in a purple moon), play all the nonsense you want, no need for exact minute manangement (still need to have time management), not worry about all the get- into- trouble- because- of- lame- things- like-forgetting-to-bring-tie shit, can stone and enjoy the breeze. i havent completed my holiday to-do list, havent got over personal fear of smt, but i know the holidays is ending is ending is ending. repetition to emphasize the mental reluctance of the little afraid mind.
mind is in a whirl, heart is not around. only playing playing playing. but its good to hang on, because the merry go round is still turning, turning, turning.
quoting cher " Ever since 11jan, i lost my way" the what's next part is even harder than the o level sucks part.
Quoting Lenka- The Show, Slow it down, make it stop, or else my heart is going to pop. Life is a maze, so what if you have the map? you dont have time to visit all the attractions. and love is a riddle.
I blog but you don't have to understand.
Saturday, January 16, 2010
11:47 PM
Resoultions there are some things i should say before the show begins.
1. If one day i feel i got myself into some deep shit (which 3person waiting to see me get into T.T), i promise i will try my best to make chocolate shake out of the shit.
2. If I feel lost in the place where on the last day, i decided to include in the choice, I would remind myself that I'm just buying two years worth of time. Seems like a good trade.
3. I will not allow myself to fall under the trap of engaging in cheap thrills too much, neither will I allow myself to let thoughts of wearing what to school play a greater role in my brain.
number one is for HC, number two is for NJ, number three is for SP. i know, very diverse choices. im weird like that.
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Wednesday, January 13, 2010
9:57 PM
cross cross cross. i found out i have crossed all.
where it leads to, next?
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Thursday, January 07, 2010
1:30 AM
11jan.cool date. results can be collected from 2pm onwards, does that mean we have to queue for hours beforehand like some big sales going on? hurmphs.
i dont have high high high (take note of the repetition, to emphasize the high high) expectations so i guess i will be okay, as in feeling okay.
have to dye hair back sooonn like maybe tomorrow. to... hurmphs.. dark brown? hmmm. dont judge a book by its cover, but judge a student by the hair.
it's so hard to decide how to spend a day properly :( it's working that makes me cherish each free day, like super preciousxsxsxsx. time management.
(gah! hate it that im saying that im learning time management then i find myself actually wasting time, because i can't sleep now, and am thinking of my plans tomorrow (very messed up, i dont like)
hate it that i can't sleep at night, yet feel tired when i wake up in the morning, at a forced time. hate it that some people waste money without blinking an eye. hate being online because everytime i off it, i will feel sad,frustrated,worried,upset. (english not good, no more vocab) hate it when people speak too messily or softly but due to circumstances, you have to hmm ahh and pretend u heard it. hate it that i hate alot of things.
suddenly becoming indecisive... hate it. but it takes alot to make a good choice. (applies for choosing of tertiary education, life routes, relationships, etc etc)
dont let your minds run wild.
I blog but you don't have to understand.
Hi, I'm FangXian
and I believe in
Mind over body, Heart over mind.
I ♥ happy people
Happy is a virtue :D
but life is not just abt being happy
it's about doing what you never thought you could.
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