Worm eaten by chicken

Saturday, February 27, 2010

12:49 AM

I think having that adding Facebook friends allows one to think that he/she has mantained that link with the person even though they won't ever meet one another again.
I hope that everyone still remembers that meeting that person face to face is a really different feeling from meeting in facebook photos, and that talking face to face is certainly more amazing than writing on the wall.
Whee.

I blog but you don't have to understand.

Thursday, February 25, 2010

8:13 PM

Am relatively happy.

Glad that I can see where I will be in a few years time.
I have dreams now, hooray.

Haven't been using my time productively as I've been slacking.
And super irregular sleeping hours are worsening my complexion. sobs.
But it's okayy because this is called resting to walk a longer mile.

I only have to pluck TWO teeth for braces :) hooray.
Mostly people have to pluck four?

Currently slacking because feel like working but feel zzz to work.
But will go work soon. Carpark surveyor seems funny? fun? Or should I go back SR?
I have tried waitressing, tutoring, sales associate, cashiering, flyers.
Seems like not much more to try eh? Ok la, still have some which im quite interested to go play..
Like... zookeeper.
But I think is a very saikang job? So I dont dare go :X

Ninety nine percent of my close friends are in JC, so it's kinda boring now.
Aiya, in fact ALL my close friends are in jcs LOL.
But it's okay.
HAHA.

Cant wait to meet people who can go JC (in fact relatively GOOD JCs) but chose IB <3

I blog but you don't have to understand.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

5:29 PM

I blog but you don't have to understand.

Sunday, February 21, 2010

9:39 PM

Body World and integrity issues

here's a googled image. And I saw it for real! in Body World Exhibition @ Science Centre.
It was totally worth it.
Children(to 16yrs!) ticket only priced at 12$.
It's just amazing to see things that you don't normally see.
And the fact that it is totally relevant to everybody, makes it a Must-go.
At such exhibitons, videography and photography aren't allowed, that's to maintain the level of surpriseness ( bad eng :( ) each person would get when they visit there real life right?
But it's quite saddening that nowadays no one really cares, and snap like nobody's business.
This is like the Hello Kitty Lab event @expo last year, where it was a clear display of people's nonchalence abt abiding the No photography rule.
That was a waste of money though, unlike Body world!
Hmm, just wanna say that such people are clearly selfish and lack a sense of self discipline.
Ok maybe abit Jidong,
but I think Exhibitions are to impact you in your heart and life, not just to provide visual pleasure.

I blog but you don't have to understand.

Saturday, February 20, 2010

12:33 AM

hmm.. I confess

that I have nothing to blog about.

And what's with the one picture, then blog chim chim?
everyone's doing it now, then I won't.
attitude. cough.

No one knows what could have been :)
Because there is NO what could have been.

feels good that your heart is strong.
feels good when you answer a question confidently.
not just the one word answer but also the why part :D

I blog but you don't have to understand.

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

11:02 PM

wrapping up.

What's important isn't how nicely the photograph is taken, but the fun you had behind the photos.

But of course a nice photo would be a bonus right? HAHA.

Submitted my withdrawal form today.
I feel.
great.
Immense sense of relief.

(haha, you people can slap me.)

Now that I've stepped on the grass on the other side, next time, I won't feel that it's greener.
It's different for me. Because I chose to go smell the flowers at the other side :)
I didn't just get thrown in some random garden.

(ok, i want to blog abstract again, for the next part. Means, if you get it, you get it. If you don't, then don't. HAHA)

Why must live with things that you strongly feel against? Why must live feeling like you are drifting apart?
Why not choose to take a slow walk in the park, where there's time to stop and smell the flowers?

Oh, and I shall elaborate on the "Mind over body, heart over mind" thing which I started believing in recently. HAHA sounds like I've joined some religious thing. LOL.

Mind over body simply means your mind takes over your body, like you will yourself to do things that you should do no matter how tired your body is. Because the mind is stronger.
Heard this part from I-forgot-where but the next part is I added in myself one.
The next part is Heart over mind.
Which means you follow your heart, instead of your mind!
The difference between human and beast is that Humans feel.
So, follow your heart.
And since Mind over body, heart over mind
= Heart over body.
Also means that you see heart instead of body.

(ok you must be like Whatever~ now)
Ok, after typing that paragraph I feel crap.
But if I delete that paragraph, then i will feel even more crap, because I've already typed it.
Right, very nonsense.
I think I'm back to myself already :)

I blog but you don't have to understand.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

3:46 PM

friends

When you were six, friends were people whom you went to the playground with.
When you were seven, friends were people whom you played hopscotch during recess with.
When you were eight, friends were people who gave you half a sweet when they only had one.
When you were twelve, friends were people who friend you, and dont friend the people you don't friend.
LOL
When you were thirteen, friends were the people who hanged around with you and giggled with you.

At sixteen, friends are people who stay when the lights go down, and let you know that the hand is always there, to catch you when you fall.

Laugh like like there's no tomorrow, smile like a child eating lollipop, and love like erm. like what? Love like Faber and montag!

I blog but you don't have to understand.

Monday, February 15, 2010

10:40 PM

Happy CNY and Vday!

Quite cool that this year CNY meets Vday, kinda like putting lovers in a difficult spot, by asking them "family or lover", just like the "if i fall into the sea, will you save your mother or me" question. HAHA, joke.
So like I was in Msia first two days of CNY, thus I didn't reply to all the new year messages because when I was back, it's already kinda too late to reply.
Actually, I wonder if these kinda messages need a reply.
If you say just reply lah, since they send you, then isnt it worthless already? Like you are wishing for the sake of being polite.
If you choose some to reply only, then abit bad hor?

And has it ever occured to you that there might be cases where people is acting like they are mass messaging, but in actual fact, the message is only sent to you?

Ok, then today I went to the Universal Studio/ Imbiah area with relatives from Msia who wanted to visit the casino but didn't in the end, because to go in, you need to queue for an hour.
Basically, I don't think anyone should go there now, because it's quite boring, now that the theme park isn't open, and that the casino admission cost 100$ (ok not that im of age yet anyway).
But okay quite cool that the expensive admission fee thing is working quite well deterring locals from going in. Love such mind tactics.

HOO (hu) (tiger) RAY. bye.

I blog but you don't have to understand.

1:28 AM

Hi there

To all concerned,
I think I ought to explain.

So like, as NgeeAnn Poly is pleased to offer me a place in International Business 2010 intake, I'm equally pleased to have been offered a place.
Everything still feels quite surreal, but I guess security will set in after I've received the enrolment package in early March.
Feel zzz to still have to go HwaChong Institution to settle admin stuffs, like tell them I want to give up the place there. But I have to, and will, because I'm responsible :)

Ok, so like I've never been able to decide between poly or jc, since like wayy before O levels. And being me, stubborn crazy me, I kinda anyhow do the Joint Admission Exercise (JAE). Because I had this play play attititude. And on 8feb, I have finally settled my mind on taking the poly route, due to my interest, passion and future. I believe that it will give me a further edge in my future career path. (yeap, I had to write appeal letters)
the worst thing about the appeal letters was my email. fairy -.-
Sounds easy right, good score, u choose anything u want.
But it was hell lots of trouble,
I was faced with the "JAE application is over, the only way to wait for next year", and admin aunties who got so touchy when she heard "hwachong" and held my hand, and directors who "why didn't you put as your first choice in the first place", and "then it's your fault lor".
It was crazy, I almost thought I would go work for a year, and go poly.
Because there are promotable- to- J2 people who quit J2 and went poly. Right.

The wait for them to give me a place was terrible, it made me live without a soul. I was so emo I cried like shit ok. (wah sounds damn drama here). It's like you belonged somewhere and then suddenly you belong nowhere, just because of missing the appeal date.

So, WHY?
Because I didn't have the heart to study for the As anymore. I don't think studying for the cert is a good thing to live by, except for O levels. O levels is like Ordinary level, so, you should just study to show you can study. coughs. And I think the the poly syllables is so much more relevant. Of course, the things you learn in JC is useful as well, but personally im not interested.
I don't want to feel juvenile-ish and stick to the very very school-ish type of life anymore.
And, by choosing to go poly, I am actually much more motivated and stressed to study harder, because I will still have YOU this bunch of JC kids who will fight uni place with me.
And, I have things to prove to people. That, it wasn't a wrong choice.

And Why suddenly blog?
Because I realised that in this globalising world, having a platform to express your thoughts freely is incredibly precious to have. To show my sincerity, I have changed the green line, where it repeats after every post ends, from "Sorry I blog about stuffs that I don't expect you to understand" to "I blog, so that you understand."

SO SINCERE RIGHT? OK HAHA.

I blog but you don't have to understand.

Monday, February 08, 2010

5:50 PM

i feel fucking down. fucked up nonsense shitload of troubles. i freaking thought it was as easy as abc. can i just be a piece of emoshit and lie there.

I blog but you don't have to understand.

Sunday, February 07, 2010

12:24 PM

i wish i knew where to buy

happy pills.

I blog but you don't have to understand.

Monday, February 01, 2010

10:48 PM

but some people just dont work hard and expect alot, we just shouldn't sympathetise them, because they clearly don't deserve it?
but it gets so irritating when people show concern to such ridiculous people.

i think i will wait, because good things are worth the wait. abit ridiculous.

a lil afraid of how soon it will be, that i would simply have no time to read ridiculous blogs, blog ridiculous thoughts, watch ridiculous shows, do ridiculous things, meet ridiculous people.

haiz,
if it brings me closer to __,
i will.

the unsettled feeling is back back back again.
baby are you down down down down down.

very excited to meet people taking same subjects as me. im taking crazy subjects, which totally isnt fangxian. people who knows know.

there are so many so many uncertainties that it seems nothing is certain, yet you are so certain that you are uncertain. (wtf.)

I blog but you don't have to understand.