Monday, February 15, 2010

1:28 AM

Hi there

To all concerned,
I think I ought to explain.

So like, as NgeeAnn Poly is pleased to offer me a place in International Business 2010 intake, I'm equally pleased to have been offered a place.
Everything still feels quite surreal, but I guess security will set in after I've received the enrolment package in early March.
Feel zzz to still have to go HwaChong Institution to settle admin stuffs, like tell them I want to give up the place there. But I have to, and will, because I'm responsible :)

Ok, so like I've never been able to decide between poly or jc, since like wayy before O levels. And being me, stubborn crazy me, I kinda anyhow do the Joint Admission Exercise (JAE). Because I had this play play attititude. And on 8feb, I have finally settled my mind on taking the poly route, due to my interest, passion and future. I believe that it will give me a further edge in my future career path. (yeap, I had to write appeal letters)
the worst thing about the appeal letters was my email. fairy -.-
Sounds easy right, good score, u choose anything u want.
But it was hell lots of trouble,
I was faced with the "JAE application is over, the only way to wait for next year", and admin aunties who got so touchy when she heard "hwachong" and held my hand, and directors who "why didn't you put as your first choice in the first place", and "then it's your fault lor".
It was crazy, I almost thought I would go work for a year, and go poly.
Because there are promotable- to- J2 people who quit J2 and went poly. Right.

The wait for them to give me a place was terrible, it made me live without a soul. I was so emo I cried like shit ok. (wah sounds damn drama here). It's like you belonged somewhere and then suddenly you belong nowhere, just because of missing the appeal date.

So, WHY?
Because I didn't have the heart to study for the As anymore. I don't think studying for the cert is a good thing to live by, except for O levels. O levels is like Ordinary level, so, you should just study to show you can study. coughs. And I think the the poly syllables is so much more relevant. Of course, the things you learn in JC is useful as well, but personally im not interested.
I don't want to feel juvenile-ish and stick to the very very school-ish type of life anymore.
And, by choosing to go poly, I am actually much more motivated and stressed to study harder, because I will still have YOU this bunch of JC kids who will fight uni place with me.
And, I have things to prove to people. That, it wasn't a wrong choice.

And Why suddenly blog?
Because I realised that in this globalising world, having a platform to express your thoughts freely is incredibly precious to have. To show my sincerity, I have changed the green line, where it repeats after every post ends, from "Sorry I blog about stuffs that I don't expect you to understand" to "I blog, so that you understand."

SO SINCERE RIGHT? OK HAHA.

I blog but you don't have to understand.