i see tears. i see irritated faces. i see faces of despair. i see fighting faces that shout no defeat. i see blood. i see encouragement. i see strong-willed faces. i see the effort to try. i see bruises. i see blue-black. i see sweat glitters.
wow.
I blog but you don't have to understand.
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
9:49 PM
Trust. Everyone owns an admission ticket to your trust. Some goes and enjoy the rides, stays there for some time. Some can win the games, and earn more and more tokens. Yet, this yucky eeky small bunch of assholes tear the fucking ticket right in front of your eyes.
People may say, it's all about believing, baby.
But, how do you expect me to believe in something so not worth to believing in. That's like Telling me to hit the egg with a spoon and asking me to believe a chick will come out. Thanks.
Looking at the bright side, at least you tore the ticket right in front of me.
Bytheway, how is it possible for a fucking retard like you to bounce back and gain the love. Comeon, all talk no action = not a man. NOT A MAN AT ALL. I pity your mum, because she couldn't choose which kid she wanted.
Sorry about the excessive use of fuck, but I need to get it off. This blog is NEVER meant to be a dumping space for bad vocabs.
It's all about being responsible.
I blog but you don't have to understand.
Friday, July 23, 2010
10:04 PM
fight and you shall get. I am glad I can hear about you doing well, even though you are a million miles away.
Your doing well gave me strength, I will do well too.
Though I am not living the way you taught me to, but I will live. Because you taught me to live.
I blog but you don't have to understand.
Thursday, July 22, 2010
10:44 PM
Can you bring yourself there? There are many things I wished I learnt in the past.
There are many things I know I will want to have "learnt in the past" (which is the present) when I look back in the future.
But it's the half-hearted feeling, all over again.
The only person who can piece back my heart is me myself and I.
In this case, it's not about giving up on yourself. It's about putting in an effort, for everyone's sake.
Ask not for a lighter burden, but broader shoulders.
I blog but you don't have to understand.
Sunday, July 18, 2010
9:35 PM
Guard your heart If I guard my heart properly, no one can steal it.
Not even the best thief can.
It take two hands to clap. Dont go and clap and then pretend someone forced you. Things don't work like that. Things work like you want to. But sometimes, your heart, you just can't control.
Like, you can block out your ears, you can block out your eyes, but you can't block out what you feel in your heart.
Although you can't control what you feel, you can control what you do. and most importantly, what you show.
Don't show it.
I blog but you don't have to understand.
Saturday, July 17, 2010
3:07 PM
If you want something, If you want something, you ask for it. If you want something badly, you fight for it. If you want something hard enough, you die for it.
Most of the times when you want something hard enough to die for it, you probably wouldnt die, instead, become a stronger person with the thing you want, all in your hand.
Then again, take note, thats only most of the times. There are always exceptions where you bleed, and get nothing in return.
I blog but you don't have to understand.
Thursday, July 15, 2010
10:43 AM
Because "upcoming" is subjective. That is the main reason in difference in attitude. And why some people are motivated to climb mountains, and some are not motivated enough to climb out of their beds in the morning. 7 weeks is upcoming. hahaha.
I blog but you don't have to understand.
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
12:47 AM
I laugh when I talk with you. Not smile, not giggle. Guard your heart. I'm guessing, no one would choose to be alone once you have found someone.
It's like no one would choose to eat syrup cherries once they have found fresh ripe cherries, if you get what I mean. HAHA.
not strong enough? not unsociable enough, i guess. But it's a good thing. Life is supposed to based on happyness. Just that for long term happyness, you may have to pay back the time to do some hard work to make up for the time you used to play, play and play.
What exactly is sleep? To what extent is it a good thing, to what extent is it a bad thing? Practise makes perfect. Practising to survive the night and sleep less and less and less, doesn't make you not want to sleep in the end. I often wonder what to think of people who treat sleep as a luxury.
How am I gonna survive today, tomorrow? The happyness level determining letter hasnt arrived. I'm paranoid like a parrot now. Like, OMG, BABY. (Dj earworm)
I blog but you don't have to understand.
Sunday, July 11, 2010
10:39 PM
Learning organizations Learning organizations are places where people continually expand their capacity to create the results they truly desire, where new and expansive patterns of thinking are nutured, where collective aspirations are set free, and where people are continually learning how to learn together.
I blog but you don't have to understand.
Friday, July 09, 2010
11:44 PM
Tomorrow. I will be fighting. I will be attacking my fear. I will be afraid. But I will not show it.
Keep the little shivering girl at home. What I want them to see is a confident young lady, with poise, with dreams.
I blog but you don't have to understand.
Thursday, July 08, 2010
1:36 PM
Are you not feeling well today? erm hurmph, hmmm. I could only manage to mumble a mellow hmm.
truth is, I went for cheerleading practice, by the time I got home, it was already ~ and I wanted to complete my tutorial. While doing my tutorial, I was MSNing, Fb-ing. Popping the coffeebeats in my mouth, the night almost felt like a breezy sunday afternoon.
I realised that if your body is tired and your mind is tired, and you don't have a fuck loud alarm clock and you silented your phone, you can't wake up.
I wonder if I am holding on to the balloon because there isn't anyone else who is gonna come to me and give me another helium filled balloon, and if I let go of this one, it will rise higher and pop in the air. And then, I won't have anything left. But if I hold on to this balloon, I will not have freehands to eat ice cream. The ice cream is dripping.
I blog but you don't have to understand.
1:46 AM
whenever I feel like quitting, I ask myself what do I wanna achieve at the end of the three years.
I think about whether, when I old and gold and I look back at my life, am I able to say I did what I want to do?
I asked myself if I don't like it because I can't do it or because I really don't like it? If it's because I can't, why? Do I really want to do it? If yes, nothing's gonna stop you baby.
I wanna wrap myself in the blanket and feel like no monsters can hurt me.
I blog but you don't have to understand.
Tuesday, July 06, 2010
3:56 AM
I don't want to be a quitter. Being a quitter is really loserish, because you just prove to yourself you can't hold on long enough. And the thing is, you know the race is about who stays till the end. However, sometimes you don't quit in name, but you quit in actions, that's even worse than a quitter, because that's a quitter who doesn't admit he's a quitter. For example, you may be a student in name, but whether you are studying or not is a different story. I have come to this point of my life where my attitude have changed. And it is no longer about just doing things, but deciding once you do it, you do it with your best. but sometimes quitting one thing just means you have decided to put in more effort for the many other things you have.
I blog but you don't have to understand.
Monday, July 05, 2010
1:12 AM
Realisation You realise that it isn't about the standard, the people, it's about your attitude. When your attitude changes, your actions changes, things change. It may take alot, but as long as you know its worth it, you will do it.
If there's a hundred steps ahead and the other party is only willing to take one step, you tell yourself that you will grit your teeth and walk the 99 steps.
I blog but you don't have to understand.
Hi, I'm FangXian
and I believe in
Mind over body, Heart over mind.
I ♥ happy people
Happy is a virtue :D
but life is not just abt being happy
it's about doing what you never thought you could.
This is just a space to share weird thoughts.
