Wednesday, August 25, 2010

9:46 PM

ahh i know why.

beams.

So I have been telling myself I can't decide if I want it anot.
But that's a lie.
Because now I know I really want it, and previously it was all a show of insecurity.
Perhaps I didn't dared to tell myself I want it,
because I was afraid of how I might fail.
The determination wasn't there.
But now, I know I want it.
I know it because it's something that I know when I am twenty, forty, sixty years old,
I will want to look back and
yeah I've done that before.

It feels good now that I know I want it. Though whether I get it or not might not be a matter of choice, but I'm encouraged to strive to try my very best, and now I know I will. At least now that if I failed, I will not dismiss it as something I couldn't care less about because I was half-hearted, but I will know I've tried and it means something to me.

Thanks to all the amazing youth olympics people, you've shone light on me.
esp Germany, Brazil and Mongolia.
Muahaha.


Indecisiveness is costly. they suck all the happy juice out of you.
But a costly decision cannot be made in a rush of time. Hehe.

Being young is only once. And a nice body beats anything.
Anything.

(not saying it in a "go do surgery" kind of meaning, but a "live healthily" kind of meaning, means GO AND JOG.)


I hate how
I am missing someone I don't even know so badly.

Dear heart, please tell me how do you work.

Fighting temptations is damn fun because the immense sense of satisfaction that will be brought upon you is incredulously satisfactory and yummier than the original temptations itself.
Its like a fight in a fight.
a dream in a dream.


I'm glad how such seeing-light moments occur, they are just so fairytale-like.
It's like suddenly the voice deep inside there tells you exactly what you should do.
That feels awesome.

Let's all jump off the cliffs,
and build wings on the way down.
quoted from thingsweforget.blogspot

I blog but you don't have to understand.